Beyond A Shadow Of A Doubt
In studying the nature of a shadow in relation to the source of light creating it I am struck by the area between the shadow and the light, the area which is confused and dull, being neither, light nor shadow but affected by both, being partially lit and dimmed by the ensuing darkness, seeming to fade out until fully consumed.
The light source commands a shadow’s form and space, giving it shape and declaring its position by the shining. The shadow falls below and at the foot of whatever the light lands on. It is a lackluster version of what it follows, forever separated from its source, never catching up to it’s maker; rather, it receives what form the light makes of it; always reaching out but never beyond its strict boundary. It seems to swallow up in darkness, anything it intersects however it lives alone, where the light shifts it, as the light moves effortlessly and without restriction. The light creates the shadows existence and space for it.
The shadow is an effective tool in the creation of dimension and is a source of confusion and distortion as it hides aspects or blurs them. It cannot see certain aspects because its boundaries do not allow it to develop beyond itself unable to rise above the bottom, where it begins. If it does expand, it would only be into the speckled mist of doubt, that area between dark and light, in the added dimension where we are guests, subject to both the light and the darkness, a dimension unto ourselves where we are host to spiritual bodies, both of the light and of the darkness. We live there, in doubt. If we are confident, it is a false confidence since we are subject to perpetual incomprehensibility. Even faithfulness to a belief is questionable given our steadiness in flickering between the light and the dark and our inability to distinguish between them things, which seem good to us time and again, prove to undermine our good intentions. Much of this due to prided self confidence, which is nothing more than disregarding the self doubt and putting forth effort; reasoning, whether we doubt or not, conceptually, there is the potential of a 100% success rate which can only happen if an attempt is made; that said, the other side of the pep talk seems to be, if things do not go according to plan, there is a potential of less than 100% loss because you won’t know until you try and you will perhaps grow stronger with the effort; however, this is only if you have nothing to lose… you would still have the potential to lose 100% in energy and resource. It seems clear; we are full of doubt and desire! Our desire compels us to walk through the valley of the shadow of doubt in order to win; although we are not really gambling, the game is rigged in our favor!
Our intellect and our being steeped in doubt are not what gives us an edge, rather we are perched on the edge of darkness and shift with the light. As the light moves, we are moved. Our being on the precipice between what we can see and what is unclear to us (knowing and not knowing) is the added, new dimension. Before us, there is light and dark, each knowing one or the other; but being sandwiched between, we are touched by both. This added dimension, our being on the verge of darkness and light, makes way for our merger into light. Why not a merging into darkness? Because the darkness is a created dimension too, not a creator as is the light. The darkness can only be as and where the light puts it light’s the way. It’s not a game we’re in; rather it is our beginning in the act of winning confidence.
Being in doubt shakes our confidence, but we can have full confidence in knowing we will not be consumed by darkness but will be plucked from the darkness (redeemed) by light. Though it may seem like a shadow can over-shadow; it can only move and shape-shift as the light commands it. We too are limited, to the area between them where we are temporarily restricted by the shadow blocking us from the light; still we are dwelling in a form subject to change, as we are forever cast by the light and readied to go beyond the shadow of a doubt, joining the caste of light in its world of clarity, forever, when doubt is cast upon the shadow.